Tuesday, June 1, 2010

An Honest Post

I need to get this out. I try so hard to just accept this "Season" that Our Lord has put me in, and truthfully, most days I DO, but I am Sick of being Sick !! I am yelling it to the rooftops for all to hear. Am I feeling sorry for myself, ya, probably a little. My forties were supposed to be the new thirties, Right ?

Every day I get up and Hope that this muscle will feel better, or that bone wont hurt so much, and honestly, SO much of me is grateful for just GETTING UP. " I cried when I saw the man that had no shoes, till I saw the man that had no feet." I LIVE by that motto.

My Stepmother had no feet. NO, Not literally. She just died in her fifties from MS. She was never able to leave her bed, had to be lifted by a hoist just to shower, and lost her only son, My brother, when he was 19 to a car accident. I cant and WONT tell you what she suffered with that disease. SHE is the one that had no feet and a daily reminder for ME to appreciate everything I DO have. I know I was a witness to that for what I would walk through now. And I DO, REALLY appreciate everything I have been gifted with. Just today I am sick of being Sick. And I DO NOT want sympathy, but I DO want someone else who is Sick of Being Sick to know that they are not alone. Other people feel the same way, but just might not say it. Anyhow, I just wanted to say that :)




Connie said...

I know exactly how you feel, sweets. I do pray for you regularly to get some relief. What else can I say? I'm with ya and hear ya...

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry Rhea! Almost every day I do not feel good either. I have a list of things that bother me, and even as I type this I have gout in my feet and ankles. Not feeling well in so many ways. I sure hope your sick condition is temporary. Not sure what is ailing you, but I do appreciate you letting others know we are not alone in our sufferings! :) May God bless you and heal you! Cathy

marĂ­a cecilia said...

Hola Rhea, sorry to hear that and you have the right to shout it at loud everytime you need it!!!Shouting is so good...
Blessings to you,
Maria Cecilia

Rebecca said...

Rhea...I'm sorry my friend. I know I can't do anything for your health but I can commit to pray for you and I will. I promise.

One of my dearest friends ever passed away four years ago to a devastating, disfiguring disease. She wrote several books, my favorite being "When the Pieces Don't Fit". She was my mentor and constant supporter and I was full of grief when she passed away. God called her to do so many things but he chose not to heal her physical body and I never understood why. I still don't know why.

What I do know is that because of her illness she touched many a life. I would never had been given the privilege of even meeting her in person if it had not been for the fact she was disabled and needed help.

I don't know why I'm sharing this with you...just want you to know that God is in the midst of where you are and understands your heart. He has a purpose for you...He does.

Love to you my talented friend.


Kim's Treasures said...

Awww.... I totally understand! My lack of blog posts is due in part to my fibromyalgia. I can only do so much in a day and with planning my daughter's wedding and packing to move to Chicago, it's taking every last bit of my strength. Today...nothing...I had nothing left to give...I slept 4 hours straight this afternoon. I'm on a new pain med that is helping some but not with the energy or the IBS and some days not even with the pain. I always think to myself that I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

You're so not alone! Big gentle hugs!


Hi Rhea,
I feel it's okay to let God know how you feel ~
May tomorrow be a better day for you.
Deb :)

Linda said...

I am so glad you are able to express you frustration! I know and understand the sick of being sick. It is good to know you are not alone!

PeggyR said...

I feel so bad. I'm sending out prayers and hugs to you! I'm hoping you get well soon!

Southern Lady's Vintage said...

Bless your heart! I know how you feel. I try to remember that there are others who are much worse also. But, sometimes it gets the best of me too. We are only human.

SharDon Exclusives said...

It seems that things come in "groups" like the eb and flow of the ocean. Sometimes we try to hold our head above the water and another wave hits us right in the back side. That is the way it always is for me. Things go along tranquil for a short while then trials pile up and leave us flat on our face. I am there now. I do understand the pains of living with pain but I have found that "letting go and riding the wave" (with the Lord as my balace then I am not always out of pain but have a "hope" ahead that things will get better} If we are not robbed of our HOPE then we can endure until HE says enough. It is so difficult for me to lean on Him and trust He is working toward my own good. I do understand your honest hearts cry, I live it and I will promise to remember your honest hearts cry for relief. You are in my prayers.

Joanne Kennedy said...

Oh I wish I lived near you because I would give you a big hug! I want you to know you are not alone too!

I am in pain every day and have been told that I just have to live with it. Which I do most of the days. However, like you, sometimes I just want to cry (and I have) and don't understand why it won't go away.

Then I have to stop and think of all the people who would trade places with me in a heart beat. I know I have it good compaired to some but to others I have it much worse. Life is like that.

That doesn't mean we can't get sad, depressed and mad that our life has to be so painful. It's ok to be upset and not be strong all the time.

I'm sure you are like me and have quit talking to most people about your pain. They are sick of hearing it and just don't understand anyway. So it's sometimes nice to have someone you can vent to. I'm here for you. Please email me anytime you want to talk to someone who understands.


Anonymous said...

Dear Miss Rhea,
Your cry went to my heart. I hear you, my friend and wish that it was different for you.I so wish and pray for you to be restored to full health.
In the midst of your cries,you continue to be a blessing to others, simply by being you. Weep, rant and cry as you need to, but also know that you are deeply loved and valued, just as you are.
Hugs,love & prayers, Peta xo

Stephanie ~ Angelic Accents said...

Much love and prayers zooming your way, Rhea. Tomorrow will be better, wait and see....I live by that motto a lot myself.

Did you hear that I'm having a WEDDING BLOG PARTY on June 25th (my first ever to hostess!) so please stop by if you are interested and read about it ~ I'd love to have you join us! And there will be another sweet giveaway, too!

Big TX Hugs,
Angelic Accents

jen said...

HI Rhea,

Let it out! I do know how you feel, it 's hard for those who have not know this type of situation to relate. For me I have to fight getting depressed because that really only makes being that sick worse. It is a frustrating thing to not be able to do the basics. I haven't spent a single day in my garden this year and it's June 1st. But we just got to let go and let God take care of us and be our strength when we have no more fight in us.... Hang in there sweetie... Know that I luv ya! (not that it really helps) Ha ha! Now be good and try to stay out of trouble! and remember to take care of you it's the most important right now :)

luvs and glitter

Sarita Boyette said...

Thank you, Miss Rhea, I have often been in the same mood and I needed to be reminded about others worse off than I. I will be praying for you, that this season will pass.I'm not giving sympathy, just love and prayer.

Home and Heart said...

It is sweet of you to want to let others know!! I feel the same way! I have Fibromyalgia, and some other not too fun issues. I hate suffering, whether myself, or others! I personally believe that God doesn't cause our pain, but he allows it for a time, and if we trust Him, He gets us through. I hope you feel better soon, and know a stranger cares!

She'sSewPretty said...

Oh Rhea! It's ok. I have diabetes and some days I am so sick of the shots and the rigamaroll that I just want to scream too. So, let's scream together. It's not fair and it sucks but we do both have our feet and we can dance! Take care my friend.

Anonymous said...

I am nearly 60 & with my recent bout with Breast Cancer & all the hullabaloo after I am sick of it all too. BUT...even though with every twinge I get & every mammogram I will get & the stress of hearing the results I will enjoy each & every day I am here!!
Chin up.....You too can get through this & enjoy life for that is what we are here for...To find some way to enjoy our lives!

Anonymous said...

Miss Rhea,

I do know what you're talking about. I'm not sure what your ailment is, but I have fibromyalgia, and it's not fun. Like you, I believe there is a purpose in this pain, and I could testify of all the many times my Lord has given me unimaginable strength in this, but there are many times when I'm like you - sick of being sick. Sick of saying "I can't". To look at me you'd never know there was anything wrong. But He is sovreign, He knows what He's doing, and I accept what He has for me. I'm praying for you today.

Angie from Soddy Daisy, TN

Sherry from Alabama said...

Thanks for the honesty. You are in my prayers today.

Sherry @ A Happy Valentine

Kathy said...

You know what Rhea? Sometimes it's okay to cry, complain and moan. It IS! It's what separates us from the animals!! Scream it from the rooftops and then "keep on keeping on". I'm a great fan of a pity party now and again. Hugs to you, Kathy

Denise said...

Good for you! I can sympathize with being sick of sickness ~ I've been complaining myself lately about having a sick little boy 12 surgeries and who knows how many more) and a sick husband (Parkinson's Disease: totally disabled at 44). Sometimes we get "weary in well doing" forgetting that in due season we will "reap if we faint not" ;)! You are in my prayers ~ I pray today may be pain free and you'll feel the Breath of heaven.

LuLu Kellogg said...

I do hope you feel better soon. I have had pneumonia for almost 2 weeks and I am sick of being sick too!!


Tea Duchess said...

Oh, Sweetie. I am sorry and I know it is frustrating. It is 'okay' to vent and get it off your chest. Just because there are people with 'no feet' does not mean that what you are going through is no less difficult. I do hope that it is just for a season and that you are healed-soon! What a celebration that day will be! You are loved and though about and prayed for, way out here in Colorado. If ever you want to contact me through my blog or email, please do.

Country Wings in Phoenix said...

Oh Rhea Sweetie...
I am right there with you honey. I spent 8 days in the hospital and have been ill with my lungs and chronic asthma for almost 6 weeks. I am still confined to the house for another 2 weeks. I cannot go outside and nobody can come in. It has been the pits.

I too sweetie, am Sick and Tired of Being Sick. I am so thrilled to know someone out there can sympathize with me.

Thank you sweetie for this wonderful post and for allowing me to vent too. We are two Peas in a Pod.

Love ya girl. Country hugs sweetie...Sherry

Cottage Remnant said...

Romans 5:3-5
...also let us boast in our troubles; because we know that trouble produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope; and this hope does not let us down, because God's love for us has already been poured out n our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us...
Glad to hear that trouble has hope with in you and not defeat.

Be blessed.

Paulina said...

Dear Miss Rhea, I quite understand how you are feeling :o)

God be with you.
Big hugs

Sharon said...

I am so sorry that you are not feeling well. I m sure you are checking out all that you can do to improve. Lots of good info out there. I would be in bed if I continued to eat any sugar or wheat products. No Dr ever heped me with that. But God has been so faithful to show me how to feel better. I pray you will get some answers. Sharon

Rosie said...

3 things help me when I am sick of being sick...
1)I remember that "this too shall pass.
2)I think of what agony my Savior went through for me.
3)I send my hubby out for a bowl of egg drop soup and I go to bed and watch a Doris Day movie.
That always brightens my spirit...even if only for 90 minutes! :)

Anonymous said...

I so know what your are talking about and also know maybe tomorrow, maybe it will be next week you will be praising the Lord again for a beautiful day- I think those of us who struggle with health issues understand more deeply the blessing of a good day. I am staying home from several ministry things today because I just can't do it all--so feel like I disappoint Hubby when this happens but am learning that God works in the suffering of our lives so much.

John of the Cross Dark Night of the Soul- is a book that has helped me tremendously.

THe sun will come out tomorrow friend-

bee blessed

Marilyn said...

I hear you! Its not selfish to feel like that. I think we deserve to feel free to express this and not to repress it. I was so sick of being sick too. we are all at different levels of sickness..but its still our sicknes, and it gets hard. :)
Marilyn x

nancy huggins said...

I hear you loud and clear and I am also sick of being sick (actually in so much pain) Just taking one day at a time and hoping things will change when I can move back home where my doctors are (midwest)
A lot of us out there that just want it to GO AWAY

Gayla said...

Oh, I so appreciate what you have written. I do. I, too, am so sick of being sick. I tell the Lord sometimes that I would do such wonderful things for Him if he'd heal me completely. I have lupus and arthritis so bad that I barely huff from one place to another. Yet, I have lost friends a few years ago to a car accident and one to breast cancer, so I know not to complain. But at times ya just gotta. I am praying for you and hope you feel much stronger and better every day. Every day new miracles happen in healing and in medicine. That's what I pray for ---- for you. Hugs and all that! I love your blog. I wrote you a letter a while back about how much I love your blog, but I'm not sure you got it. GAyla

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Pink Roses and Teacups said...

Sweet Rhea,

I am so sorry to hear about your stepmom and brother. It is so hard to watch a loved one going through such a debilitating disease. We ask God "Why Me"? This is a question we may never know the answer to. We can just be thankful for what we do have, and try to realize that if we could pick any problem off a tree, we would most likely pick our own. Realize that others have it worse than us. Sometimes that helps, and sometimes it doesn't. We do just get sick and tired. I have had a hernitated disk since last summer, and I've tried so many different things. It has gotten better, but there is still a lot of things I can't do. As a result, I have not been able to work. (I have a cleaning business) I do get angry sometimes. I just go on, and I too have my good days and bad days. I think we all do in some way. There is so much I want to say. Just hang in there sweetie, and know that there are others that feel just as you do. Please write me anytime. I'm here.

Love and Hugs,

Gail said...

Rhea, I hope your feeling better today. It is so hard to be sick all the time, can make one a bit crazy. I pray the Lord will comfort you and help you get over each hurdle each moment of the day. I don't know what is making you sick, but I do understand your frustration.

My Vintage Studio said...

Dear Rhea,

I am so sorry to hear that you are not feeling well.

I know how you feel. Sorry I haven't been to visit in a while.
I live with pain everyday that causes so much fatique.

You will be included in my prayers.

Hugs, Sharon

Cathy said...

Hi Rhea,

I'm loving the embroidered runner!!! And I never can get enough faux sweets. YOU GO GIRL.

xo Cath

debi said...

Hi Rhea,
I also try to stay positive because crying about it all the time doesn't get us anywhere. And I know, there is always someone who hurts more than I do.
But, some's very difficult to keep that stiff upper lip and move on.
You're not alone.
Hugs, Debi

claudie said...

Hi Rhea
I've been reading all your comments here. My husband who is 48 was just diagnosed with Fibro. Is that what you have or is it MS? I'm not sure. He's tried several meds, but has most side effects. We live in Canada, so diff. meds that you guys. He doesn't like to complain, but I have to make sure I know what level he is at every hour. He's suffering. He takes Tylenol and Celebrex when the pain is really bad. I also hear that it takes years to find the right thing, and depression comes with it.
Just wondering if you have any advice. I know your suffering from something, I read it before.
I hear you, and I'm sorry.
Love Claudie at Bubblin' Over